WE SWEAR

She holds my hands and says a word
She promises to give me the world
We stay right there under the flaming sun
Bathing our hearts in what's to come
She gazes into my pools of despair
And for the moment she sees my fears
She grabs me by the back of my neck
And swears to GOD that she'll throw all to heck
I love her more than life itself
I'm sick with depression and not so well
She cries for me and begs me to think
What if I'd succeed in that suicidal thing?
She slaps me in my unmoving face
And wishes that this wasn't a waste
She's hurting for me because I'm her heart
And all I thought of is ripping us apart
She drops to her knees and holds her head
If she didn't come then today I would've been dead
I tried to hang myself a few minutes ago
She ran to my side as fast as her legs could go
Now we're here outside my door
And here she is sobbing on the floor
I can't even cry for what she saw
The sorrows that had me are still so raw
She's muttering to herself about wanting to die
Because I wanted to leave her and she don't know why
She's blaming herself for me grabbing that rope
Jumping from the chair, giving up all hope
She slams her fist into the dirt
Her pain's too escalated for that to hurt
I stare down at her without even a tear
I just want to hold her and force out her fear
But this is real and I wanted to die
I attempted it because I hated my life
She's so beautiful, one of a kind
And she's the only one that gave me her time
We would sit together days on end
Talking forever, feeling despair never again
Here she is, Crying away
Shedding so many tears to what she saw today
She stands up straight and looks in my eyes
Searching for certainty that there were lies
Looking for a reply to answer my neglect
To remember the promise months after we've met
We swore to love one another no matter what
Because we could make it, for each other we've got
She hated that there wasn't a tear
That I just stood there as if the answer was clear
She pounded her palm into my chest
Crying again, as loud as best
I grabbed her wrists and pulled her close
She tried to resist at her most
I held her tight and said those words
"I'm sorry but I don't need the world,
I just want you and you alone
To hold me near to your heart and home"
She sobbed what's left and resisted no more
As we embraced together and I whispered our swore

*I promise never again will I ever try to forget about us*