Why?

Why can\'t you see
how much you hurt me

are you blind
or is your image just confined

i can\'t help but wonder
what kind of spell i was under

what made me want to please you
even if it made me blue

why did i want to be your friend
even though i knew our relationship would eventually end

i was kind and sweet
but you were full of deceit

i wanted you to call me your one and only
but you left me extremely lonely

you played with my emotions
it felt like i was under spells and potions

you treated me sweet or really mean
some of your words were very obscene

i ignored your hatred and excepted your caring
and i promoted the sharing

i wanted you to need me as much as i needed you
but so much of you just used me and some of me knew

i still want to be that girl
but she also makes me hurl

i just need to remember
all the things that ruined my September

and hopefully that will keep me free
and leave my so i can clearly see

all the evil in reality
and leave my mind to its vitality...

definitions:
vitality- the property of being able to survive and grow
obscene-offensive to the mind