I'm trying my best to act like everything's okay
I battle with myself to make it through each day
Hours pass by with racing thoughts of you
I keep having to remind myself of why we're through
I begin to blame myself because of the way we split
Then suddenly I remember puttin up with all your s...
Half of me wants to be angry
The other half of me is dying to hear you call me baby.
I'm caught inbetween two emotions
Although I decided on this last seperation
I'm filled with confusion because somethin inside of me wants this to only be an illusion.
I just wish that we could compromise for a settling resolution,
I can't handle sitting here without a final conclusion.
No hard feelings is all I desire,
but everyone around us is adding fuel to the fire.
My friends ask if I still love you even though they already know.
Still I say no, pretending I've already let you go.
I will avoid anything possible that has your name in it
There's just no way I could deal with it.
I'm attempting every option to move on,
forcing my heart to stop holding on.
As bad as I want to
I can't let this get to you.
Letting you find out is somethin I won't do.
I'll hold it in until my face turns blue.
Even if the world would end, I wouldn't tell a soul how I miss you.
I know that's sort of bad,
How I 'm fighting with myself to not be sad
and how I'm ignoring every sign of depression just so you can learn your f...ing lesson.
I hate this,
I\\\'m always feelin like shit for no reason.
I get back and forth emotions, similiar to the changing seasons.
All I wanna do is happily move along.
I want to smile at the end of each day with nothing wrong.
If that\\\'s too much to ask for then I don\\\'t know what to say
Maybe I did something wrong or should have listened when you
asked me to stay.
But I shouldn\\\'t be thinking of this now,
It\\\'s long gone, too late for wondering how
We\\\'re simply out of time for things to rearrange
This is how it is, nothing is going to change.
I know that I will never completely forget,
so I won\\\'t waste my time with stupid little regrets.
I know that one day I will be perfectly okay,
so I\\\'m going to sit here and wait patiently for that promising day.
