Confusion

My heart is no stranger to heartache
Or feeling lonely and abused
My heart is used to getting shut out
And my love is often refused.
I know better than anyone
That people don't stick around
When it's their time to leave
They are no where to be found.
You came into my life
Like a hurricane tears up the shore
You captured my heart and took me in
Tore it up and left it lying on the floor.
I couldn't breathe without you
But we couldn't be together
But even when we said goodbye
I was still thinking forever.
I moved away from you and us
And parted with my home town
I tried to heal myself and build the wall
That you made come crashing down.
As life and time passed me by
I found another love.
His touch was honest and sincere
But it just didn't feel like enough.
I didn't want to move backward
But I never got over him.
I'd never gotten over that love
Even though he stretched me so thin.
There was a time he saved me
From all I thought was bad
And I'll always love and want him
He was the best and worst I ever had.
He doesn't know it right now
But we're going to be together
We have a different kind of love
The kind that lasts forever.
Where I'm at right now
Scares me half to death.
I have to take that deathly leap
That my heart might soon regret.
So I'll close my eyes and hold my breath
And hang on for dear life...
I'm going to jump in head first
And get ready for the ride.