DRUGS..

ONCE I TOOK THAT HIT,
I INHALED, 1-2-3-4-5-
EXHALE SLOWLY...

SHE TOLD ME IT WOULDNT HURT
AND IT DIDNT,
"JUST ACT NORMAL TABITHA!\"
SHE SAID DONT TELL ANYONE,
OOPS! I THOUGHT I WAS THE COOLEST THING IN EVERETT.

I HAD ENERGY LIKE CRAZY,
WE WALKED TO THE MALL,
AND BACK.

I TOOK ANOTHER HIT,
I INHALED, 1-2-3-4-5-
EXHALE SLOWLY...

THAT WAS GOING TO BE ALL,
JUST TWO HITS AND NEVER AGAIN WOULD I DO IT.

I FORGOT THAT.
TWO HITS TURNED INTO TWO DAYS,
CONTINUOSLY I SMOKED.

HIT AFTER HIT,
I WOULD INHALE, 1-2-3-4-5-
EXHALE SLOWLY...

I WENT TO MY MOMS FOR THE NIGHT,
I TRIED TO SLEEP,
I DIDNT.

I LEFT IN THE MORNING,
I MET UP WITH \"HER\",
ANOTHER LONG DAY,
HIT AFTER HIT AFTER HIT.

I GOT SCARED,
THE STASH WAS GETTING LOW.
WE BEGGED FOR MONEY,
GOT $120,
SPENT THAT.

I WAS HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE,
UNTIL WE RAN OUT.

I DIDNT KNOW ABOUT THE WITHDRAWALS,
SHE SAID IT WOULDNT HURT,
NOW IT DID.

I WENT HOME,
I WAS SCARED..

WHAT DID I DO?
I NEEDED HELP,
EITHER MORE METH,
OR SOME MONEY.

JACKO,
I LOVE YOU,
PLEASE HELP ME.

IM SHAKING..
I CANT STOP MOVING.

\"WHATS WRONG TABITHA?\"
HE ASKED ME AND I CRIED,
I JUST SAID \"GUESS\"
I WAS SCARED.

HE GUESSED,
\"PREGNANT?\"...\"NO.\"
\"LEGAL TROUBLE?\"...\"NO.\"
\"THEN WHAT?\"...\"DRUGS!\"

HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN?
WHAT WAS I THINKING?
WHAT DID I DO?
I JUST CRIED.

I STAYED UP FOR DAYS,
EVERY BONE,
EVERY MUSCLE,
EVERYTHING ACHED.

TWO DAYS..
I RUINED MY OWN LIFE,
I MURDERED MYSELF,
NO ONE LOVES A MURDERER.

IM STUPID,
IM A LOSER,
IM TABITHA,
IM AN ADDICT/ALCOHOLIC!