New Guy

It still feels kind of weird
to recognise that now
I am your girl
and you are my guy
to me it's hard
but I guess you understand..
I fell hard...
and stayed there awhile
and you came
and lent a hand...
I thought I would be okay
and for awhile
I guess I was, living in this
crazy, heartsick denial..
But I have gotten worse..
I know you are here
for me but stay
patient please..
Please don't give up
if sometimes pull away
and even if it seems
I have drawn into myself..
there really isn't anything that you
could say..
the best thing you could do..
is just stay
as a friend..because I'm not ready.
I'm not close to over him-
I know I never will be...
but I can't be with you
without feeling guilt
because he is all I think about...
I promise you..
I will heal some day
and then...maybe...
this relationship you seek..
could begin...