I told you to go away

It was so long ago that we were together
i can't help but wonder what would have happened

i had a dream about you the other day
and the facts tend to get skewed as time goes on
i think i like you more in my memories than in person

if i saw you today i would be more open to you
i wouldn't push you away so much
you came to me to get closure
and i told you to never talk to me again

i'd like to think it wouldn't have worked from the beginning
that way i am not to blame
i think i was destined to be unhappy
maybe i was terrible in a past life

then again sometimes i wonder..
why were you so upset by it all?
it seems to me that you were the one
who was a game player and still are
never revealing your true self

it must sound stupid now
but i am so attracted to your personality even now
your love for fast cars, adventure
living life and music
you never sang for me which i wanted so badly

going into the long distance apart
i tried to just be friends
i think if we were friends then
we still would be friends now
instead of me cheating on you

we were too young to expect it to work
i know i loved you but love is never enough
and to think i was the one who asked you to marry me

we were never given the chance to see if it would have really worked
but now i have my answer
it doesn't matter who i am married to
it will never work out

"i'd like to think we would still be together" and i said "no way"
i havn't changed my mind
but i think i was a little harsh
is that what you needed?

even though i have never told you this...
i am so sorry i hurt you and made you cry
it was not my intention to be such a biotch to you

i am just a cold hearted callous person underneath it all
and probably always will be