The note

I stand there
gun to my head
thinking at 11:59
about my life and its dread

i look at my mother\'s beautiful face
i think of how i will see her soon
she is in heavan with god
i will meet them both at noon

i close my eyes
a silent tear rolls down my cold face
i think about heavan
i can\'t wait to see this perfect place

i cock the gun
the trigger is the only thing i feel
i think about my true love
how i thought our love was real

my decision is made
how i feel so dumb
i have decided to kill myself
my body is numb

i hope he misses me
i wonder if he will cry?
he is the reason
i have to die

my last tear comes streaming down
im thinking about how my life is soon to end..
my face comes to a frown

i pull the trigger
i fall life-less to the ground
holding a note
hoping to be found

i lay there dead
in the velvet puddle of fears
holding the note
that held all my tears

\"i love you my darling,
sorry u had to see me this way
but you are the reason
i died today,

u said u loved me
that was a lie
u love her
another reason i had to die

im giving u my life
only you took it from me
i hope now
you really see

remember the day we kissed?
i said i\'d love you till i died
you said \"me too\"
we both cried

today is the day
i stopped loving you
only because
you never loved me too

by:Brittany Jean Gilbert