Insane

Confess the News of my oblivion
Tell me the truth I've longed to hear
Entice me with what I ache for the most
In hopes that I cling to these feelings with Fear

Afternoon horizon, retiring for the night
Lost in a whirl-wind of words
As My Nerves
Caress my armor

Why Do I, want to know the inevitable?
Why Do I, seek knowledge of those things to come
Sanction from my insanity is what I'm hiding from

Mask me with the lies
I've tried...
To drown it all
With a bottle of wine
A plate of nothing in which to dine
Paste on a smile and call it fine

It feels...
I see...
I don't know what to believe...

It’s happening
Once Again
I've allowed my mind to drift
To a place I've tried to protect it from

It's driving me insane
Just to think of your name
To think I've let myself down
To adorn another frown
Along with another ring of thorns for a crown

My fingers graze the glass of poison
As it slides down my throat
Slow and deadly
Wine is as thick as blood
Slow and deadly
Just look at what I've become

It's insane of me to believe
I could break this curse
To live in bliss
To feel a kiss

Running around in circles
Aching joints and tight muscles
Fracturing my ego
I'm feeling rather feeble

Glass shards
Erupting in me
Once again
My very own tragedy
With eyes pink as a baby
Cheeks drenched with tears
My comforter neglecting my cover and feeling sheer
Sheer enough to peer
Through

Insanity has taken its toll on me
It seeps through my brain
Eating away at my remains

To fathom possibly being able...
To turn my insipid fables...
Into reality
Is too much to take on
I'm trying my best to carry on

Same results
Same actions
Different aspirations
It all ends the same
I have nothing in which to claim
My own

Feels nice
To have my heart pay the price
For my naive behavior
For the lost of faith
In a Savior

Have Mercy on my soul
Hell has swallowed me whole
Leaving me raw and burnt
Oh and it hurts
It hurts
It hurts...