My life without him

One man really put me down,
It gives him some kind of pleasure when he sees me frown

Sometimes he picks me up & tells me he's sorry,
But all the other times he don't care bout me

He broke up with me for her & thats the worst pain I ever felt
After all I did for him & I'm just another natch on his belt?

He hurt me worse then anyone ever hurt me before
When he broke up with me it was like I was kicked out the to the floor.

All I wanna know is what I do-what I say?
After all I've done for him -it wasn't supposed to end this way

After the way he hurt me I still feel the same
But I feel all the pain again every time I hear his name.

But I still love him even though people don't understand why,
But they also don't understand that without him I would die.

He's talking to other girls probably having a ball
While the dudes that talk to me...I get rid of them all.

I wish I knew how he feels, is he missing me too?
Does he wanna say "I love you" as much as I do?

Is he talking to other girls just to hide his feelings for me?
If he comes back does that mean it was meant to be?

Does he really love me but is scared to get hurt?
No because I'm not like her, I wont stomp his heart in the dirt!

I was his first but he wasn't mine,
Is that why we're not together-he doesn't think thats just fine?

What should I do to get him back into my life,
Because if he's not in it much longer i will take it with a knife...