I know

I don't know
why?
sometimes i think
and then i cry

when i remember
it makes my head churn
and my thoughts,
they just burn
into my head
when I'm on my bed

i try to forget
what was done
for me it was hell,
for them it was fun

but that was then
and this is now
i know what they think
i just don't know how

these memories wont leave me
i just want to be free
this prejudice is cruel
like a man beating a mule

i know its wrong
but that doesn't help
i know things change
but not the way Ive felt

i know people here
aren't the same,
but these thoughts
are stuck in my brain

i know it wont help,
on these thoughts to dwell
but sometimes
my life seems like hell

i know i have friends
but they don't know
what its like
to feel such sorrow

these people around me
my feelings i cant show
what i remember
they don't know

people don't know
what Ive come to realize
human nature,
brings its own demise

these feelings are bad
the memories, sad
people might hear
but they don't listen,
'cuz they don't don't really care

my eyes are blue
and thats how i feel
in my heart
thoughts seem real

i know its sad
yet so true,
that I, am
so different from You