A Dear John Letter

I know you said the time would come, but its harder for me than you,
Because I love you so much, and i i\'ve thought this through and through.
So here i go with my dear john letter, words cannot express,
I love you more today than ever, but this relationships a mess.
How can we go on when we are so far apart,
Just writing this letter, it is tearing out my heart.
You have been away for some time, and i know your struggling to carry it through,
But I cannot wait for 13 years, that is difficult for me and even harder so for you.
When the night falls, its the hardest part of my day,
Because I cant feel your body next to me, in bed as i lay.
A kiss good night and the things i miss so bad,
Are all the things from the past, the merories that we had.
I may never find someone i truelly love, the way I felt about you,
But moving on in life, is something im forcing myself to do.
You must try and understand me, I cannot stick by you for that long,
This dear john letter, is explaining my love, and where it all went wrong.
So just remember you were the one that through your life away,
And we would still be together, Loving eachother, to this day.
If only you had done 9-5, earning an honest wage,
You wouldnt be in prison, serving half your age.
Now I love you dearlly, and i may never love like this again,
But this love is hurting me, and causing me equally the pain.
Take care of yourself, i hope we can stay in touch,
And hope you understand, that you realli have hurt me that much.

* comments appreciated, a very hard poem for me to write, because its based on realli events