Could this girl be me?

It started out as nothing
And turned into a big something
My crazy little fantasy
Turned into a very big obsession
At first it was every so often
But it gradually turned into an everyday thing
Something I could not control
Even if I wanted to try
Something I could not see
That was happening to me
Everyone took notice
Of my weight fading fast
But all they could do was talk behind my back
And whisper as I walked past
It cut me like a knife going in deep
I thought they were lying
I didnt think it was me
How could I have anorexia
Or any sort of eating disorder
I ate so much and never exercised enough
So what were they talking about
Saying that girl was me
that girl with anorexia surely couldnt be me
as weeks went by
id look in the mirror
with no skinny girl staring back at me
just a girl with to much cellulite
or at least thats what I thought
as more days went by
I found my self lying more and more each day
About why I wasnt hungry and didnt want tea
About why the weight was falling to the floor
About why I was exercising more and more
I pushed so many people away
Hurt them in so many ways
With my aggressive behaviour
And lying ways
Yet I could still not see
How it was all me
I couldnt be that girl with anorexia
It just wasnt me
As time continued to fly by
Id get asked more and more each day
have you eaten today
how far did you just run
the questions would annoy me
and hurt me deep inside
why were they asking me this
I could not understand
I just could not see
Until one day
When it all came crashing down
I fell to the ground with no one to help
All my friends were gone
My family had no clue
Were they all right
About what they told me from the start
Was that girl really me
Did I really have what they all say
How could it be true
When its not what I saw
How could my eyes be lying to me
Why was my mind playing tricks on me
How could all this possibly be true
Could I really have an eating disorder?