Deep

I must pretend to hug you so.
that the pain my heart feels.
won't get to my mind and i.
won't begin to cry and kill myself.

i must not think of the stars.
because my mind will begin.
to remember the past when.
i just stare at the sky,hoping the stars.
would grant my wish and give me you.

i will get away from you if i can.
only just to have a glimpse of your smile.
happy that i will long be away.
and happier if i won't be able to get back.

i must be brave and let you go.
i must be strong to take all the pain away.
i must kiss all the tears goodbye and farewell.
and die just for the sake of making you smile.

i promise i won't cry,i won't mourn.
i promise i won't be sad,won't be down.
and i promise i won't break those promises.
and i promise you won't see me near.

please don't blame me if i can't.
if i can't sleep at night,if i can't.
erase you in my mind,please don't.
blame me cos hearts do love deep.
but hearts,when cut deep,bleeds.

you may not see me as somebody special.
but please don't make me feel so down.
please don't plead that i should go.
and if that is what you want then fine.
but i won't take long,i'll get back to you.

when i'm ready again,when it heals again.
i would give my heart again,to get broken,
again and again,my hopelessness won't end.