Once again

Once again I help you
Help you to hate me more...
Then I already hate myself
And I know how the next month will be

You can't forgive me until I forgive my self
And I don't know if that can happen,
For I am angry at myself
More than you could know

So once again we dont speak
Once again I have those thoughts
Once again I know
I know that if I try, fewer words will be spoken

So now I sit at home
And my eyes turn that beautiful green
So here I sit, here I lye and here I cry
Forever my eyes will water

Only a few
Can stop it
My heart is broken and only a few can save it
You have the power and wont spare

So here I sit, here I lye and here I cry
And there I sat, there I lay, and there I bled
Forever I will lie
Under ground, out of mind and in Peace