Nightmare

Icy, cold, darkness
then a soft spotlight
feeling a warm release
knowing something's not right

looking down and reeling
from what i knew i was feeling
blood running free
from cuts made by me

hundreds of things
carved into my skin
somebody save me
forgive me my sin

from my wrists and my arms
blood flowing like rain
slipping through my fingers
yet i feel no pain

i know that i am dying
then i feel you near
beyond the blood
it is your prescence i fear

i plead for your help
but you do not show
frantic i wonder
where did you go

im sorry im sorry
im sorry for this
tears mix with the blood
coming from my wrists

over and over
i scream for you
over and over
your name from my lips
but you do not come
as my heart
it rips

the bleeding won't stop
and you will not come
the light starts to fade....
and then i wake up.

shaking and crying
whispering your name
praying for death
and burning in shame.