I dont wanna remember the break up
or the incidents that follwed...
the pills
the alcohol
diluted eyes
insomnia...
nights spent cuttng my arms and thighs to shreds...
the boys...
my stupid f**cking priblms
i dont wanna remembermyattempts
my failed attempts
in the hospital
days bleeding together
i dont ant to remember
your voice
your hands
your hair
NOTHING i dont want to remember anything...
the daily trips to the pyologists
an expert picking at my brain...
i completely closed up...
im sick of resisting these sick urges to cut whenthings arent easy
and having to deal with my problems with a sober perspective...
no pills or alcohol in me
i know its for the best
but i sometimes wonder how it is...
cos umade me so happy
u showed me the golden lining
i will eternally love u dee
but at the ame time hate u
for leaving me
forgetting me...
one day ure going tomake it so big
youll be famous...
and ill cry because i knew the guy before all the publicity sh*t...
before u startedthinking u were king shyt
you were the 1st guy ive ever loved...
we even lost our virgniy to eachother..
acknowlege u remember!!
people tell me i have something special with u that you'll neverhave with any1 else...
first love
