Love Or Hate

I love you but I hate you, I cant decide between the two.
I love you because you the one that I hate, were the first to show how it feels to have a lively spirit in ones heart and soul.
i hate you because you the one that I love, were the first to show how it feels to have so much pain in ones heart.

i don't understand why so much hurt when you were the first to say " I LOVE YOU".
I also don't understand why so many tears were shed when you said "I WILL NEVER HURT YOU."
Many promises many lies.
You showed me many things so why can't you take it all away.
Instead you bring my hopes up and in the end am hurt once more.
You left your trace behind, leaving a big wound on my heart that wont heal.
Just thinking about you gets me depressed and makes me want to break down in tears.
I's been a year since that day in which I cried myself to sleep only having my pillow to hug and to wipe my tears off my face.
I thought I was over you but I only pull myself away from you and all of it, in the end when I come face to face with the truth it comes down to me still loving you.
But when I think about how much hurt you caused then it comes down to me also hating you.

I love you but I hate you, I cant decide between the two.
I love you because you the one that I hate, were the first to show how it feels to have a lively spirit in ones heart and soul.
i hate you because you the one that I love, were the first to show how it feels to have so much pain in ones heart.

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