One year ago i was on top of the world. I was in love with my first true love and he was my first for everything. i never thought that the love we had could ever cease.i did not know that in 2 more months i would be so depressed to the point of suicide. i had not only lost my true luv but something else that still today makes me cry- a child. today it appears that we both have moved on. i now have a boyfriend that treats me w/ so much respect and he respects that i will always love my first true luv no matter how long i live. but now i have much conflict inside b/c it was just one year ago i concived- even though it was an accident. i have been becomming depressed b/c i hope that this vicious cycle will not continue. right now i feel on top of the world b/c i have the greatest guy ever- but unknowingly it could be over in 2 short months. i am so scared that this vicious cycle of luv will not repeat it self. i have learned many lessons from my first and i am trying my hardest to stick to them.i never want to get to the point of attempting to kill myself and i\'m so glad that it had failed b/c i would have never known that i could luc sum1 just as much or even more. i am on top of the world
