Is being loved to much to ask for?

Sitting alone in my room again
no way to take the pain
everyone else in the one room together
but maybe thats better
i don't want another screaming fight
or another sleepless night
i sit alone and hear there laughter
it only makes me write faster
i cant help the tears
i no that nobody cares
i just want loved but no,
thats to much for them to show
even my own family
treat me unfairly
i have nothing to do but cry
and silently pray to die
Ive never been excepted
by all Ive been rejected
blood dripping on the floor
is being loved to much to ask for?