Self realization

I sit in the end of my thoughts,
i sit in shock unable to feel.
i burrow within my self
I'm consumed with my own
my hypocrisy freed
all i am
i feel all and nothing
my life is worthless
remember to breath
Alone.
Paralyzed.
Pain.
Hate.
Stupidity.
Shell.
Broken.
Regret.
Dead.

I have found the mirror of my true self.
I have looked upon the thing i saw there and been sick.
I have seen and denied.
I have wronged and i have ruined.
I have walked through the valley of death and found i belong.
I have found myself guilty and worthy of the maximum punishment.
I deserve nothing for i am nothing; an electron missing in a universe.