I'll dial your number frantically on my phone,
I need to hear your voice again...
I need to here you speak while
In the background, your music drones.
I need to see your hazel eyes again,
I need to see you smile.
Too bad that it'll never be the same,
Too bad those laughs were all lies.
I need to sit down and just talk...
I need you more than ever now.
But you've ruined everything
With your clumsiness.
You're quite a good actor,
I'll give you that.
But do you want me to trust you?
'Cuz that idea's just gone splat.
I can't talk to you anymore,
When I'm on the phone with you I'm just biting back tears.
I can't get over it-
It's been two whole, painful years...
You don't know I know,
But right now everything's going wrong.
I'll put on a fake smile, and stop listening to all those slow, sad songs.
I'll force a weak laugh,
Say I'm okay.
But I've never been worse in my life.
I just can't live this way.
You don't know how much it hurts to talk to you,
Might as well stab me with a knife.
You've caused me so much damn pain,
You've caused me too much strife.
It's not your fault, though...
Yes, yes...I promise you, I know.
I'm not angry with you,
I'm just upset.
I'm scared more than anything,
I'm scared that you'll never be the same again.
It's been a long time since
I've seen a real smile from you.
How can I believe anything you say anymore,
When nothing you did was the truth?
I've felt so much pain,
But I guess it's nothing compared to yours.
For that reason,
I'm never going to be angry with you...
I'm just gonna keeep on dragging myself through this thunder storm.
I'll try to stay strong; I'll try to help.
I love you,
But how could you do this to me?
Or more importanty:
How could you do this to yourself?
