I Tried Enough Guys

How can great love and happiness suddenly come to an end?
How can you prefer something useless over your girlfriend?
I thought we were forever meant to be
From this depression, I doubt that Ill ever be able to break free
For my eyes will no longer see what they longed to see
Your gorgeous eyes while youre starring back at me
And my lips will no longer taste what they longed to taste
Your tasty lips while youre grabbing my waist
Now that all what was between us is through
I realized how much I truly love you
You mean more than the world to me
And now with someone else you will probably be
I know that I wasnt a good girlfriend to you
I know that I did lots of mistakes that really hurt you
But was it all worth preferring cigarettes to me?
Couldnt you just tell me that you no longer wanted us to be?
It would have been much easier for me to hear
And it would have been easier to understand and more clear
Than to just simply say that you cant stop smoking
And choose it over me, making me feel like nothing
This much pain my heart never really felt
For you actually caused my heart to melt
I thought that was it, the tragic ending of our love
But then flirting with your cousin you accused me of
When hes actually the one that came on to me
But of course hes your cousin, so the truth you were too blind to see
I didnt just feel like a b****, you made me feel like a wh0re
A wh0re who just continuously goes on hunting for more
However, I thank God that you showed me this part of you before
I actually gave you my all
But what I really regret is trusting another guy
Even though I knew that they just cause a heart to die
I dont think Ill ever bother looking for love with another male
I think its about time for me to search for my true love, a female