Hidden Emotions

So many emotions,
same S*** different day.
Wondering if its just me,
giving my life away.

I try to stay strong,
but that feeling doesnt last.
nor are things falling into place,
maybe im moving too fast.

I follow by example
and do only what im told.
Is it just me?
or does that feeling too, get old?

I start to wonder why,
why things the way they are.
I want to leave or take a break,
but it seems that dreams too far.

These feelings i cant hold back,
well, at least not now a days.
I want to scream my emotions,
but im sixteen, so this is just a faze.