The pain i feel as i say goodbye

I just like blood.. the redness, the flow, the hurt... all going out with the blood escaping from my wrist
yea i may seem weird... but the way i let go of my pain is in a way much known.... everyone who is hurting has thought of doing it... everyone knows what its like to feel really depressed at least once... one slice here.. one slice there... evening out the pain all over my body... first the wrist then the neck, then the leg, then i stop... time for the real thriller at the show... i must die... i pull out a knife and start breathing deeply.. i have to do it, but i cant... can i??? i must say goodbye first... before i die.. so see you around all those who ever cared to give me a glance... my time has come and i will take it before it pasts me by... leaving this life behind... no one will feel it too bad... i was worthless... i must go.. goodbye before I'm going to die.. I'm doing this for you... you wanted me to feel the pain you could bring upon me and now its my turn for revenge... see you in hell....