As I lie awake at night, knowing that I have to let you go will tear me up inside. I was fooling myself that you loved and cared for me. I was stupid to think I actually meant something to you. All of those tears I cried for you, who never truly loved me. What was I thinking I could actually make you happy? Was I wrong to think you were my one? The day you stopped saying I love you back, I should have known we would never be. The day that tore me up and wanted to curl up in a ball and cut. I stuck out my strong side and tried to hide the pain I was feeling. When you look at me I wonder if I crossed your mind or how you wish I wasn't here. I guess I will never know how I really meant to you, since you hide ALL of your feelings. Was I ever truly yours or were you ever mine? You were the one who jabbed a dagger right in me. When you see my name pop up on your screen, what are you really thinking and feeling? I'm tired of wondering if I'm ever on your mind. I'm growing restless to figure out if I still love you or if you still love me. The fire has burned out for us. It will probably never rekindle like I'm hoping it would. I'm giving up on you, us, and our love. Our time has came to an end and to part forever. Let the tears shed, let the memories fade but my love for you will never truly die.
