Dear Dad.

I miss you,
but I don't.
I want to hate you,
but something wont.

your gone.
and I am not alone.
I wish I had some one to hold.
I am standing out in the mid cold.
I thought I told.
But all you did was scold.

you don't call.
its like there is a wall.
I cant seem to remember why.
this all happened.

you say you want to see me.
but your not even trying.
you say your crying.
and you feel like dying.

sometimes I sit at night.
and think about what happened and it was right.
you choose drugs over me.
and you let are family be.

sometimes I wish.
I wasn't even here.
or you would just stay over there.

I never understood you,
but I guess you never really saw what I went through.
I always stuck of up for you.
but I guess you never really cared
to see that I was trying to be a man and share.

I guess we all learn a lesson.
" you never really know what you got till its gone"
but maybe now your understand the truth about life.
and leave me be, so I don't have to think about a knife.

-Emokid

Eh, About my dad.
hes gone, him and my mom got a divorce so, I am dealing with it. I know what he did was wrong. so he had too good. I just realize it though. That all along he has been hurting are family and since hes been there with us me and my family haven't really been one. But since he is gone. its just me and my mom. No brother any more. me and my mom have been doing allot better. We actually get along. =].