NEVER UNDERSTAND

I dont understand y,
i continue 2 cry,
when i have n mind,
that ur heart i didnt find,
i tell u how much i care,
& u promise to always be there,
but i fear its all just play,
& it will never b that way,
u tell me u love me 2,
& soon it will b me n u,
it all seems pretend,
i dont want my dream to end,
cuz then reality will suck,
& its just my luck,
but its all the same again,
like against her ur heart i have to win,
yet u dont c its not a game,
& 4 all the yrs u should b ashame,
i guess the game i no,
& how the story will go,
knowin that u do luv me,
but growin up u have 2 do i c,
just wish it was different,
& to u my heart was just sent,
but ur 1 thing ill never figure out,
so will u tell me what ur for reals about?