What About Now?

I cut my wrists and bleed just for you,
Because I don't know what else to do.
It seems like forever since you have been gone,
Tonight I wish there was a star I could wish upon.

I can't stand the pain anymore, I'm just too weak,
And I'm tired of every night crying myself to sleep.
I tried so hard to be perfect for you, but it wasn't enough,
Now I have to stand up for myself and act like I'm tough.

You were the only boy that I truly cared about,
And without you by my side I sit and pout.
I need you more now, than I ever really did,
Come back to me and stop acting like a kid.

If I told you I was going to cut deep enough to die,
Would you care about me then and start to cry?
If I was going to put a gun to my head,
Would it change anything when inside I'm already dead?

If I told you I loved you more then I loved anyone before,
Would you be all mine and love me even more?
I'd give you the world and so much more if I could.
What about then? What about now? Would that be good?

Copyright © December 04, 2006 - Kristina M

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I wrote this for a contest.
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