Better Then Before

Sharper then a needle
deeper then the skin
is the blade i once used
to take me life into sin

it was the night i was alone
with no one by my side
the night i felt like no one cared
there on the floor was where i lied

not a sound from the neighbors
or the dog across the street
no single sound of saving
not even a quite little peep

as i start with the corner
and dig it far in
teh blood begins to run
down my arm, so thin

i take the blade
and push it harder
making more pain
theres nothing to bother

my arm becomes numb
as i go further up the vain
i look at my arm
teh blood begins to drain

my vision is getting bury now
as my parents walked through the door
my mother screams with fright
my father is kneeling on the floor

as my mother runs for the phone
i can hear my father saying
hold on for a while longer
it will be clean where your laying

as i get further from this world
i hear the sirens coming
the door burst open
while i hear somebody humming

my mother is in shock
and my father is overwhelmed
the good life i supposedly had
is now running down the well

before i even knew it
the shining light before my eyes
where am i as i looked around
the angles i see have already died

i ask them what has happened
they told me to look at my arm
they said to me with shame
that what caused your death

i Begin to cry and think to myself
i was stupid for trying to show him i cared
by slitting my wrist for him to feel bad
how could i have even dared

i look down upon my family
and send them a message
i love you with all my heart
but now i must walk through the passage

ill miss you all very much
i know you'll miss me to
but now I'm in a better place
when true love does come true

now I'm off to settle in
this new place i have come
new friends to meet and to love
and not be so lonesome

i left you a message in my pocket mom
and day your gift in in my jacket
maybe some day ill come visit you
in a new little package

now your tears are fading fast
so my time to settle down
ill talk to you in your dreams
where well be together and show no frowns