At first my fear wasnt a fear
it was an untrue made-up
scene from a movie that
is to mean to be true
One of them truths
that you cannot look away
or even get out of your head
it was just one bad lie
you knew your were going to do it
but you didnt care
dont you know how much i love you
couldnt love you anymore
then my fear came
i never saw it coming
it hit me like a bad dream
the worst type of dream
my worst fear has came true
like the unwanted nightmares
that you get when you are scared
like you have never wanted to see
You are killing me slowly and painfully
and I have one thing to say to you
I love you like i have loved nobody else
I love you more than I ever could
I will always love you though
because you were my first
and you knew it and you liked it
you were hurting me and you knew it
Now thanks to you for not caring
I have blood stained wrists
I have blood stained legs
and a blood stained floor
Now thanks to you for not thinking
My heart as been broken
So broke it cannot re-mend
so broke you cannot fix the puzzle
So thank you for
hurting me
in a way i have never been hurt
slicing me
in a way i have never been sliced
stabbing me
in a way i have never been stabbed
killing me
painfully
and making me realized my repeated nightmare
is no longer a repeated nightmare
but reality. A sad reality i have never
wanted to face until now
