But i need my knife
because i love the blades` touch

NOOOO you don't need the blade, it is just a safe ways to get rid of your thoughts and problems, but hun they only go away for a while, but they always come back, even stronger!!!! please hun I need you to be strong, fight this for me and Boby, he need you just as much as I do....PLEASEEE

Love you lil sis