Oh how i cry

Oh how i cry
i want to die
but nothing will prevail
i simply can not bail

I'm in a trap
running a lap
around of which i seek
like a long slow leak

My head says yes my heart says no
my flesh says stop my body says go
I long to hurt to die to stay
i just want everything to go away

I'm stuck in this life
i have to endure the strife
and stay where i am all the while
oh how i wish to bloody the tile

to rip to cut to tear
to slowly pull out all my hair
slowly cut open my chest
a jagged line right to my breast

tear my heart out and know no more
all i want is to shut life's door