Loving U Was Hell

Only if you knew
all the things I've done for you;
and all the things I would've done
if only you could've been true.

All the times I said you've changed
was only me being dumb.
I knew I wasn't but still I wanted to believe
that I was the only one.

Maybe down deep
I knew we wouldn't work,
but I put too much into this relationship
to back out and get hurt.

I stayed a little longer
thinking that things would pass us by,
But each day I stayed
was another day I cried

Why am I saying these things now?
To be honest I can't answer that.
Maybe I need to get this off my chest
or maybe I just want you back.

I want you to know
that I really did care,
and that if you did
then why were you never there?

I think you owe it to me
to let me know how you truly felt.
Would it change anything?- No.
But my pain it will help.

It's been what?- A year now- and I haven't moved on.
I got over you, but now our situation.

I know I said I was off this, but I'm not it's complicated.

Not for you- But me
since I'm the one that got hurt the most.
I put my all into this relationship
and we ain't even close.

I know that that's in the past
but on it I still do dwell,
cause I can't get over the fact
how loving you felt like hell.