I though I knew
What was so wrong with me for all this years?
Thought I was broken hearted
Lied and cheated on
Was my belief why I was lost?
In a forest with out any grass
But my cat showed me today
That I still have my emotions in place
What is wrong is not a broken heart
It is the heart has turned into a feeling less piece of flesh
Know I now, that the day I saw you with another
My feeling of love, life and hope
All hit the road
They negotiation with my mind and soul
Making deals to prevent it from feeling again
All this time lost
Not sure what to do with my insides
I have placed then in a sausage grinder
And hung them out to dry
So much pain inside
I wonder how to fix
But no one is around
Doctors say take sum of this
But they do not know that I have lost all my soul
I loved with all, not anymore
I loved my friends, but can�t hang with them
I loved my family, but can�t see them
I loved my life, but now I just want to end it
I loved my games, child like, now I just sleep at night
I loved to wake and watch the world, know I just hide and waste my time
I hope god know I never meant to shame myself so
Just that all my sin, came to place
Because it all that I now know
It's the only feeling I feel in my sick, lonely soul
Anything that hurts me is what I crave
It makes me remember what it is like to feel something again
O my shame
