Cant Get Over It

As I painfully count the days passing by
I close my eyes wishing to awake from this terrible lie
Hoping that none of this ever happened, that our love didnt die
But I can no longer lie to myself, so I give up and cry
I cry for the only guy I truly loved
I cry for all the lies I believed
I cry for all the fantasies I fantasized
I cry for all the kisses I kissed
I cry for all the hugs I hugged
I cry for all the moments we shared
I cry for actually thinking that you cared
And finally, I cry for believing that we will end up married
You were everything to me
My life without you I never wanted to see
By your side I forever dreamed to be
But now that everything came to a dreadful sudden end
I lost more than just a regular boyfriend
For I lost a true lover, a soul mate
An ideal guy that I believed was brought to me by fate
I now feel so worthless, Im filled with despair
I dont feel like moving, I dont even have the strength to brush my hair
I hardly ate anything for the passed 6 days, I swear
I can no longer breathe, for you were my main source of air
I may smile but then Id suddenly fall into tears, this pain I can no longer bear
How can I continue living when the best part of me is no longer there?
When we were still together, I sometimes imagined how my life would be
If we ever split apart and you were no longer with me
Just thinking of it caused me to cry, I never thought Id actually see
The day it came true and slowly started killing me
Yet the pain I felt while imagining it before
Is not even quarter of what I now have to endure
I sometimes pray that youll come back to me
And once again we will together be
But then I snap back into reality
And realize that I dont want that at all
I no longer want to live a fake love story like before
I cant handle all that pain again anymore
Just 6 days of it, and I dont feel like living anymore
I just want to think of an easy way to walk out of the door
And to say good-bye to this unjust life, the merciless wh0re