Gosh, Why am I so in love with you, it's only bringing me pain and heart-ache.
The pain is too much to bare, it's something I cannot take.
My one wish would be for you to love me back the same way that I love you.
But after 5 years it hasn't gone that way, that's it, I'm done, I'm through!
I know it won't be easy, but I HAVE to fall out of love with you.
Either that or be put through so much more pain, which I'm not willing to do.
I don't want to, I don't want to feel this way.
Everybody says first loves always end this way, but I never thought it was true I just thought it was something that they say.
I was 11 years old when I met you, and even then I would say "someday I'm going to marry this guy."
It was like love at first sight and I didn't even realize it until those days when I would really miss you I would cry.
I never used to do that, you can't imagine how shocked I was.
But then it came to me one day "oh my gosh I think I might be in love."
When I would talk to my best friends that's the same thing they would say.
"I think you are in love, your not the same your different in a way."
"We don't talk the way we used to, you always seem so sad and distant.
But that's only when you talk about Anthony and how you wish you could call him, but know that you shouldn't."
This one-sided love is tearing my friendship apart.
But I guess I can't force you to love me, if it's not in your heart, it's not in you heart.
So that's it, I give up, and that's something I'm not known for.
I won't bother you with love letters or poems anymore.
It's just that I didn't want to just be friends, I wanted it to be me and you forever.
You know, the both of us, just the two of us together.
But there's my news flash, it isn't always about me.
But just this one time I wish that it was, I wish that's the way it could be.
You know I love you Anthony, and I will, always and forever.
And maybe not in real life, but in my heart we'll always be together.
