Feelings Of First Love

You'll understand this poem if you know that I am Muslim. Muslims are not allowed to have bfs/gfs, nor are guys and girls allowed to intermingle.

These feelings... I've never felt them before.
But whenever I think about you, I feel them more and more.

You say it's just a crush, but I find that hard to believe.
Because when people say they're falling in love, they find it hard to breath.

They find that their stomach starts to quiver.
Their hands sweat, shake, and start to shiver.

Well that's the way I feel when I'm around you.
You have no idea what these feelings put me through.

Sometimes when I think about you I find myself in tears.
Because I'm 15 years old and I think I'm falling in love, but there's no one that really cares.

But then again, how can they care when they don't even know.
How am I going to tell my family that there's something they should know.

That I think I've fallen in love with a 15 year old boy.
Who brings me so much happiness and brings me so much joy.

I'm not even supposed to think about boys like that, I'm Muslim let's not forget that fact.
I'd probably get back slapped if I ever told them something like that.

We don't have boyfriends or boys for friends.
These are rules that we've had forever and here I am trying to make them bend.

Because I want you for my friend, actually more then that.
But that's going to mean more then bending rules, it's going to mean breaking backs.

I just wish you'd understand that you really are amazing to me.
And that if people don't think your that amazing that's because they don't see what I see.

So maybe I have this eye that can see the truth.
Because I see so many wonderful things deep within you.

But maybe after all this, falling in love with you was a mistake.
Because unfortunately for me, with my eye I see this ending in heartbreak.