Crawling Spineless

I was given the reins to hold on to life on my own
But I found myself loosening my grip and lying cold in my own zone
Drained from the pain and the unexplained games that we all play
Losing the will to follow the words that I say
And falling out of monotony I no longer feel the need to stay
Where I'm not wanted and where I cant have my way
So I sit back and think that I need to change
Because I've got voices all around but none are in range
I can only hear the thoughts in my ear and all the times I lived in fear
Only been three years but I've got this poison spear through my heart
Which makes me tear and the pain, it infects my heart
And there's no chances left for me to go back to the start
Because I'm too far from reality to ever restart

And I tried to do what I could to let go of all the cries
But I'm stuck again with the same thought of wishing to die
Eyes stare straight at me and lies sugarcoat the truth
And there isn't enough time to search for proof that we all will be okay
Because one day whether we're ready for it or not we're gonna get caught
With the lessons we failed to be taught and answers will be sought
But we're gonna get what we deserve and going to be denied
And since we didn't reverse the ride and try to go back to relearn the lessons
We all have a piece of ourselves that we will be missing
We spend every day and every night staying in the light and never falling astray
And by staying within the lines we never thought we'd be falling into dismay
But without doing the impossible we never realize what's waiting for us to achieve
And without trying, the secrets we attempted to deceive will come back to spite us
And without anything bright we walk around blind, crawling spineless
With even the most happiest thoughts to bear teeth and bite us

Copyright, Taylor Brown, 2006-02-03