He left a love note

A Black rose i found laying with a letter. Confusion passed through my head why isn't this rose red. My best friend my true love had died this day. He broke my heart and we became best friends a close bond we had that know had been separated. I never knew that would be the last time I saw him So i began to weep. I opened up the note he left on my dresser and this is what it said. If I die I want you to know i always loved you even when I broke your heart. I wish i was standing by your side once more. I wish i could hold you tonight. I wish i could kiss you cause i never did before. I wish I could see you once more.I wish i could change the past and all the mistakes i made I wish that you could be my baby.I'm sorry i am sorry he wrote over and over again I can't take this back I wish I could. You were such a good friend true and loyal you did everything you could. If i was sick you sent me flowers. If i was down you picked me up. If i was sad you read me the bible If i needed you you were always there. Thank you for loving me thank you for being a romodel. Thank you for leading the way I know i am on the road to a better place. thank you for helping me upon liefs journey you don't know what an awesome friend you are. On the bottom it said I love you my Baby girl you are my treasure the one i will hold forever i wish I could live this dream of being with you forever i know i am going to die in this back surgery I have but you should know I will always love you you did everything you could. You strived to be more than you could be for me. I have to tell you something I would die for you my best friend thank you again and again good bye forever I love you my treasure.
Love her ex_boyfriend