Da#dy

IM totally stuck
Stuck with a dad who cant be here
Stuck with bad memoriz
I love him
But he loves to hurt me
I hope he knows how much he means to me
When he told me daddys here
I though it ment foreva
Boy waz i wrong
Daddy if your out there
Please kno im sorry
They day u went away
U took my life away to
Only u knows what i knows
Cuz u were there with me
Sometimes when i think about u
I miss u huging me
Tellin me im ok
I need to hear that
But i cant cuz your so far away
No matter what happind
I want u to kno
I forgive u
And i would go through it again
Cuz i need u in my life
I watch other kids with a daddy
But i dont have one
Becuz all u love to do waz hurt me
But maybe thats the only way u knew how
U took so much away from me
Even took my life
I try to be strong
But i cant
I kno u love me
BUt sometimes thats not good enouf
I Cutt
Cuz i used to only felt safe when u held me and said your daddys here to stay

~ i just need to get some thingz out cuz im confused about my life~