Is it love?

You're already aware,
But none of that matters.
The sight I can't bare,
As my beaten soul shatters.

It must've been first sight,
The sweet sound of your voice.
I'd try to stand and fight,
I just don't have that choice.

As my eyes gaze blankly,
Into the darkest depths of space,
It finally seems, quite frankly,
That there won't be my place.

I truly believed it'd go smooth.
I hadn't the slightest chance.
If just I can somehow move,
Through the brilliant dance.

It came the day,
When I'd be brave.
"Please," I pray,
"It's this I crave."

The worst that could occur?
I could do without.
Now I'd much rather prefer,
To what came about.

The time had come,
But that moment went grim.
I wasn't the one,
You loved him.

They don't understand.
I can't move on.
Nothing worked as I planned,
And my chance is gone.

You were the answer,
The feeling, I can't deny.
I tried to fight your cancer,
But you're not the guy.

I don't mind being friends,
I won't say it's a mistake.
I would wait to the ends.
But that's a risk I can't take.