Can't Choose

Elegant night,
Star struck I am;
The beauty I see
In my natal land.

What lack have I
To make me return?
What more is there
That my heart so yearns?

Unable to acute
A simple answer;
I'm left this choice
Worth sleepless ponder.

Aid me, I beg;
This question unfair;
I'm simply too young
To handle this affair.

Though beauty I see,
Tis not what I feel;
"Over there" however,
Vice versa is real.

Hard choice to make,
Of which to pursue?
Loss is inevitable
Whichever I choose.