Tears of Heaven

I sit on my bed, stare at the floor
Holding temptation, to punch a brick wall.
I sit and ponder, a while, to myself
Should I take it out on them, or myself?
I want people to like me, not think I'm a freak!
But if I injure myself, does that make me weak?
I am not weak! Just take a peek,
I see what you see in your life in a week!
Welcome to my life!
I know I'm f u c k e d up!
The pain I've endured
Has built up and up.
I sit once more, I stare at the door
Thinking of my heart, so badly been torn.
The tears I cry come straight from my heart,
The pain and abuse play such a big part!
Life is unfair, that much is clear
I'm tired of living a life full of fear.
I'm so sick of crying, tear after tear,
Why can't you be here?