Waitin for the pain

STOP IT!!!
You cant do it anyway your so weak
I just want it all to go away
Then do it... you will feel better
Im not like this
Yes you are.. you want this... you need this

The knife rests on her thigh....paused in uncertainty
Just one little bite from the steal
Then the ugliness that lurks inside her can escape
The pain will be her redemption
She needs this... no longer will she live with her tormenter
poisoning her every thought... the pain will help her live

LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
The only way is if you free me
IM GOING TO!!
NO you're not... you're too weak!
WATCH ME!!
Release me
RELEASE ME!!!

Release....

Blood pools... slowly it runs down her leg and kisses the floor
A rush of relief follows... then terror... and disgust
Is she free?? All is quiet..
The pain... where is it?? A mix of emotions and feelings drown her
She tries to hang onto the pain but she feels none
Cold and numb she falls into black
She feels alone... she sees a face and realises those lips are forbidden
Longing for that calming embrace... the warmth that will liberate her frozen heart
But nothing is there.. not even the pain

My senses returning, I better stop the bleeding
Shame, disgust, terror.. waiting for the pain... am I free??
I stumble to bed... waiting for the ache that never comes
Sleep... finally... may my dreams take pity on me
Drain away my burden... my blood will leave me clean
But I am wrong...

You're so weak... you will never be free of me