Life is cruel, lifer is harsh, its miss-understood. When you think about all the good times you may have had with your ex-friends you crash and burn, it just tears you apart. Its heart breaking knowing you can be friends with someone for so long and then suddenly they can act as if they never even met you. When they walk past you and don't say hi, don't give a wave, don't even smile. its as though you've lost them all over again. Every second of the day, that you think about this lost friend. How you miss the nicknames you made for each other. The way they understood you, where no one else could, how they cared for you when times got touch. And to realize that they don't even care that your dying inside just kills you. its like a pain in your body that never goes away, just eats away your insides, your heart and your soul. Even when you begin to get past it you always happen to have memories of them hat make you cry to sleep. Its hard to let go of somebody that has helped you out so much, it brings tears to your eyes knowing that you might have been able to change it, somehow, someway. Life may be gay but you cant keep on living life like your not even there. As though your dying inside because thats just like being dead. Fading away slowly until nobody even knows your there. You have to put on a smile, enjoy life even when you get past that special person it may hurt. But life is meant to be lived.
