This is my gift to you

Kisses fell that night
So did the blood drops
Tears made it sweeter
On a beating heart that stops

She felt him slowly kneeling
Wrist full of scars with pain
Her mind kept on saying
I shall not let him drain

The moment he told
His ruthless suicide plan
He kept reminding himself
Of all the problems from which he ran

And she felt weak
From all the things in her life
Then she saw a notebook
And on the counter laid a knife

His words kept on echoing
In her guilty blue eyes
Counterattacks of hatred
In her reflection she saw she cried

She believed in true love
And that it came with a price
But something other then love
Made her hurt herself twice

She pulled on the knife
Felt it in her hand
She felt shes driven her life
Into one of those dead ends

And she grasped the handle tightly
Not to let the knife slip or fall
And she pulled it against her will
Remembering how she felt so small

A wave of unholy pain
Crouched through her soul
She closed her eyes
And there she saw a girl who had it all

She grabbed the notebook from the counter,
Scribbled in a few stripes
Dipped her fingers in blood and
Saw if she could write

Why did you leave me,
She wrote it in her pain
You told me you loved me,
Remember when we danced in the rain?

You kept on embracing me
Whenever I seemed sad
And who was the one that
Gave me all that hope I once had?

She felt blood dripping
Out of her ruby red lips
But she kept on writing,
Forgot she wanted to write this:

This is my gift to you,
Its not wrapped up in shiny strings
It may not seem pretty but because of it
An angel just lost its wings

I'm sorry if I used you,
Or hurt your heart in any way
I never meant to do that,
My mind has been lately astray

Don't forget to mention me
In your prayers, I hope you wont
I know you'll want to visit me sometimes
But please, for loves sake, don't

She wanted to write a lot more,
But she weakened by each breath
She just pushed the knife away
And silently walked into death.