Untitled Goodbye

The years I mourned for you
I gambled with my heart
I bet so much and lost much more
It seemed I'd never win.

I put up barriers, built walls
I blocked out all the world
My family, friends and colleagues well
I left them in the dark

I lost my sense of dignity
My pride collapsed as well
Self consciously I judged myself
And deemed myself unfit

I laughed at my self pity
Whilst feeling sorry for myself
My strength was all I had back then
There was no one else around

I hid amongst the shadows
Laid low and kept my head down
No attention was ever brought to me
Until you came around

I was the centre for the gossips and
You liked my abstract life
I couldn't bare to let you know me
Therefore, you had to leave

I'm sorry that I led you on
And I lied when I said forever
I thought that's what I wanted but
I'm sorry. My mistake.

Forgive me, for I've wronged you
But in all, I did mean well
You used to be my world
But I had to let you go.

......:Goodbye:......