Just Breathe

An ache,
Indescribable
Sadness, anticipation, fear
So many come to mind
I'm undesired

Should I be the first?
To take a breath
And say the words
That will poison my lips

Or should I wait
And leave everything to fall apart
Knowing that you were
Holding your breath

I'm watching it rust
The hinges are falling apart

It will be another tear
In my beating core
With painful gasps
I'll sew it together

And cover it up
With smiles and false laughter