The Goodbye

***Before you read the following please NOTE that it is incomplete, the day i finish it and post it i will no longer be here, thats why its not finished! not yet and i hope i don't finish it anytime soon, but things are tough!!!! I'm still holding on***

I don't know how to end this,
This life is not for me,
I'm reaching out for help,
But your not there for me.

I just don't know what to say,
Nor either what to do,
This life is at an end,
Wish it wasn't true.

My past is one big black spot,
Tainted by their lies,
Ive been used countless times,
Then simply cast aside.

Been accused of lying,
Of plotting and deceit,
Called things unimaginable,
And bought down to me knees.

My last hope on this earth,
Was to feel a love thats true,
To have someone near,
Who would love me too.

I do not see a point,
I don't know why i try,
I failed in everything,
Thats why i say Goodbye.

Ive never cared for anyone
As much as i do for you,
I really wish you cared for me,
But i hardly do see you.

I know your past ain't perfect,
Even now at nights you cry,
Be easier if i hated you,
But my heart wont let me lie!

You will not understand,
Why i have to leave,
Why i do love you,
Or why i have to bleed.

I have to save your heart,
Your soul, your life too,
The only way i can do this,
Is to die for you.

I wish I didn't have to go,
And my dream was just a lie,
I wish I could have one more chance,
And be there by your side.

Rest assured I wont go far,
I'll still watch over you,
I'll be your guardian angel,
I will look after you.

Please understand i love you,
With everything I am,
I know this isn't easy,
But God he calls my name.